Well as the past weeks have flown by Bethany has gotten even bigger. Our school plans are almost at an end and the future is looking bright. bethany is now 2 1/2 months old and she is smiling and talking to us daily. She loves to wiggle and to drool as all babies have a tendency to do. haha I am trying to establish a bed time for her by giving her a bath and then feeding her with a story to go along. This has been an area of great frustration for me as our schedule is not one that a baby or child thrives on. I know that all I can do is my best but sometimes my best just doesnt seem good enough for her. I feel like she deserves more then that from me. Also another point of frustration to me is the fact that I seem to never get enough done. Between cleaning and homework and watching the baby I always in my opinion seem to have a dirty unorganized house. I always wonder how so many ladies that I know how they have a clean house and like 4 kids. I guess it comes with practice.
I guess this post is me venting on how I am feeling in this journey of being a mother. Interesting as it is I am enjoying it. I dont know what I will do in the years to come when she gets bigger and bigger but I want to enjoy every moment that I can. Sometimes I feel like such an aweful neglectful person when I get frustrated at Jonathan and the baby due to lack of sleep. I know that once I get more sleep that, that will get better. I just need to remind myself of that more often and ask forgiveness even more. :-)
Well it is almost time for the babies bath and I have some homework to accomplish so it is goodnight for now! Until my next post.
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